Sunday, November 29, 2009

Thinking in the night

I am a light sleeper, and have inherited my sleeping patterns from my mother. Usually, I wake up around 2 a.m. Nowadays, at my age, nature calls me to the bathroom about three to four hours after I fall asleep anyway. I am usually awake for at least two hours after that. That's the time when I think through recent events and what I may be doing after I get up in the morning.

In the last few days, this pattern has been disrupted. The reason is obvious: Derek's cancer medication has become ineffective. Today, I was awake all morning from 2 a.m. on, thinking about Derek, Airdrie, Marina and Lauren, Airdrie's parents, us, our other family members - what is ahead? As Derek says in his blog post: Time to walk into the unknown future again.


  1. Karl,

    I used to have this problem, and someone recommended I take Melatonin:

    It worked for me, however I had to stop taking it as it raised my blood-sugar levels. It has proven to be quite effective for some people, however if you have Diabetes or are on any meds for Diabetes, you may want to be careful.

  2. I understand your not sleeping, who could. The unknown is so difficult to think through, because we just don't know.

    You have so many in your family to think about, but remember you are not alone. This is huge, I understand. Many are walking the path with you and your family. Just know we are all there and the battle isn't over. We have to hope, we always have hope and we never want to lose that. Miracles still happen and hopefully you will have one.

    Take care of yourself at this time, that also is important.


  3. Thanks to both of you, Paul and Barbra. Hilkka and I, as well as all of our family appreciate your support.